Something inside

I've noticed something about myself today. While driving (where I have all my great thoughts) I got lost in ideas. That tends to happen when there is nothing good on the radio. I have realized that I need change and challenges. When I am doing the same thing over and over again my mind gets bored. While I'm good at something after that long I just put in the motions without the effort or care. At the same time I'm terrified of change. I don't want to fail therefor I do not want to try. For years I drove that old Thunderbird. That car was just a dream. As the years went on paying for gas got less and less fun. Only when I was forced did I start driving the escort. Anyone else feel like that?